Note -Something i thought worth sharing . I can feel myself becoming more aware and present . And I like the man I’m beginning to see emerge from under a blanket of ugly . Last night I cleaned my room, did my laundry and I noticed this morning that I had cleaned and arranged my cleaning kit and carry tray. The cleaning kit thing might appear to be insignificant on the surface but it’s actually a big deal for me and a sign of healing . You know at first I didn’t like cleaning toilets. I cleaned them but I didn’t enjoy it . I noticed that now I do. I love using that Clorox spray and leaving the toilet with a nice dry shine plus the smell of the spray is great and imo adds to the wow factor of the room.
I want our guests to feel that wow factor when they sit on the toilet with the knowing it’s spotless squeaky clean and sanitary. For me – The cleaner and crisper and tighter I make the beds , the tighter and cleaner and crisper I feel as a person. pillow and toilet paper points are like the icing on the cake . I also feel a need to go clothes shopping and get a hair cut
I have begun to become aware of my appearance and I want to clean up
(copied from a text from Ben, minimal to no editing)